Sugar Plum Vegan

Sweetly Humane musings from a vegan bakeress

Enter the Dragon. January 14, 2012

Filed under: blessings,musings,vegan — Jivana @ 7:05 am

Breathe…  Slow Down….  Listen…  My mantra for 2012.

Three things I have not been doing for awhile–the listening probably longer than the rest since I seem to have a problem doing that; but hey I’m working on it. Anyway, its been two years since I last posted. I’ve had no time to muse and that does not make for a complete vegan bakeress.  Honestly, I haven’t felt whole in a while; just overworked and tired.  And let me just tell you that opening a cafe on my own with little money and a small child to raise alone wasn’t one of my better ideas.  I’ve got battle scars both on my arms and in my heart from Sugar Plum.  I seem to have this love/hate relationship with my cafe like a boy you just can’t get rid of because you love him so much, but he just continuously knocks you down and makes you cry.”He’s the one,” I say.  “This is my path…”   Am I a glutton for punishment?  Can I not even have a stable and healthy relationship with the cafe I created?  My abused little girl self would think so. As strong as I am that wavering hurt child inside can really take over if you let it–and she’s been for the past two years. I’ve made poor decisions, trusted the wrong people and brought myself to the point where I teeter-totter every month on whether to keep the place open. It has to stop!

I was born the year of the Dragon–the Lunar year we are about to enter and I can already feel its effects. My energy feels different, more calm and open. I see that as much passion as I have it hasn’t been used wisely. My fire inside has been burning me, but purifying me at the same time. Getting me ready for this moment.

Breathe….
Closing my eyes and focusing on my inhale and exhale.  Releasing the fear, pain, frustration inside.  Taking in love, patience and more love.

Slow Down…..
I am not a machine.  I need a break.  I deserve a break.  Don’t want to miss the beauty of my son as he grows and learns.  Ready to savor and truly enjoy the  amazing love I found.

Listen…..
Strength is building and I am nurturing my creative side rather than just pushing it to its limits.  I’ve recognized my weaknesses and have asked for help. I need help.  I will listen. Not just to those around me that I know I can trust but to the universe as it whispers sweet nothings in my ear about abundance.

I can not continue to let the past rule me.  It’s time to embrace the goddess that lives inside itching to escape and release her shakti energy. My dragon is rising like the Kundalini serpent we all hold inside. I am the only person that can heal myself.  I feel it.  It makes me smile.

I’ve vowed to do no harm to all earthlings, including myself.

Join me.

 

 

sugar plum vegan cafe update December 30, 2009

Filed under: baking,blessings,musings,vegan — Jivana @ 2:10 pm
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Well I got the keys for the Sugar Plum Vegan Cafe on December 1st and honestly it’s been a slow month for progress due to the personal problems I have been having.

I am in the midst of a beak up with my partner and it has taken up a lot of my time along with maintaining the wholesale accounts I have.  It has not been an easy month but I am finding the power and strength within myself to continue on in this venture.  And know that it is not alone.  I have found some amazing helpers these past few weeks and have had so much support from family, friends and those invested in the cafe.  Thank you all as well as my current accounts that have endure some changes due to all of this.  And I also apologize to those who may have missed out on getting some SPV goodies due to my scatter brain these past few weeks.  I have taken on many roles: mother and father, baker, marketer, accountant, business owner and more and some things may have fallen through the cracks.

I have dedicated 2010 to be the year of the vegan.  So many good things are going to happen to our community both locally and nationally.  This is not a trend folks, this is a lifestyle that stands for all things good in this world.  Our heart, minds and hands are pure and free from the blood of another being.  And as we enter this new decade, others will come to see that our way of living is the only way we are going to be able to endure without killing our Mother Earth.  Let 2010 and beyond be an awakening to all of us that life is sacred and beautiful.  Cherish it and those around you.

I am not much of a resolution person but I will try my hardest to post to this blog on a regular basis.  Whether it be a journal entry, update, recipe, review, I will get something up here at least once a week. I encourage you all to follow my blog, comment and let me know what you think.

Bright Blessings to all of you for 2010.

Melissa Sugar

And in case you don’t know where the cafe will be:

Sugar Plum Vegan Cafe

2315 K Street, Sacramento, Ca 95816

Call me for orders or to chat at: 916-706-8100